If child protective services is part of pizzagate then I just remembered my siblings and I possibly being victims ( pizzagate )

submitted by Nana66

A post the other day brought back a memory I must have suppressed and then a few more popped up about my siblings and started me seeing a pattern.

I am the oldest of 7, my mother was taken away to a mental institute in the late 60's because she had a "nervous breakdown" when I was almost 4 and there were 5 of us. DYFS (division of youth and family services) put one sister and I in the same home together. My youngest sister who was an infant and our 2 brothers went to separate homes. My father ended up living on the streets to be close to her. Who knows, it might have just been postpartum depression till they gave her electric shock treatments and drugged her up....she happened to be pregnant again and they took that baby right from her.

In our foster home, my sister and I would get taken into the bathroom by our oldest foster brother and made to do things to him when he was left "in charge." My sister told someone about the foster brother after we got out and he supposedly got a beaten from the stepmother and that was it. One of my brothers told us he was always locked in a bathroom at his foster home and there is probably a lot to that story that I don't know but later when we were back with our parents he ended up being "like a son" to our rich landlord and going on trips with him alone...maybe he saw he was already groomed and chose him....My youngest sister ended up running away and being found with an older man at maybe 12... When my mom was finally able to get out of there, my parents had to fight to get us each back and we didn't have money for lawyers etc. Turns out, or so they said, they never told that they took right from my mom in the hospital, anything about us while growing up and he thought his foster parents were is parents. They then guilted my parents into "leaving him be for the best". My other siblings may have had things happen but I haven't thought of anything to connect yet .

But there was something I completely forgot. My foster family started taking my sister and I to a psychologist saying we were "depressed"...I was thinking what are you talking about...but I was just a kid so I did as I was told. Now I remember the creepy guy had an accent from India or something and would give us treats like dried apricots and touch me in an uncomfortable way up close and I felt funny and he would always say its our special secret. I remember feeling his breath on me. I remember not wanting to go there....there might be more but I don't remember at the moment....maybe I was drugged. This was in NJ in the 70's. I might be a pizzagate survivor and now I keep thinking hmmmm, about everything and everyone.

cakeoflightylight

https://voat.co/v/pizzagate/1616889 Senator suicided over her investigation of CPS child trafficking.

CantWaitToGetAPizzaU

When I was five or six my mother brought my younger brother and I to her new boyfriends house during one of her and my dads "breakups." I remember him taking me into the bathroom and being far too friendly. I got away unscathed, but I still to this day worry about my younger brother and wonder if he suffered something worse than I did. These people need to fucking burn.

fuckmyreddit

OP: For victims, my personal feeling is that you should report this, but you should do what makes you feel whole and healthy. If you want to demand to know who the creepy guy is/was, then do it. If you don't want to confront him then don't do it just because others tell you to. I've been through some horrid things in my life but nothing like pizzagate. What I mean is go confront these sick fucks if it will help you heal. Get a sib to go with you if it will help. If you think it will help others to turn people in, then you should. If you can find a good psychologist to talk to that might be the way to work through it. I think you just went through a major shock with this memory. Do what you think will be best for yourself. I would ask a pediatrician who is a good shrink for this. And if the shrink gives off any kind of creepy vibes, get another psychologist or psychiatrist to talk to. There may be a victim's group in your area. Take care of yourself. Big hugs from all of us. Ps. Hope this is legible. I'm typing on a phone with one thumb and it's difficult.

LostandFound

Thank you for sharing, I hope that you heal and develop as a result of this.

mrohm

Thank you for sharing this. I hope you can find some closure to it. Pizzagate or not, I fear this happened a hell of a lot to kids. Still happening, but there's thankfully more awareness about it.

IPleadThe2nd

Sounds like you would make a wonderful foster parent! And parent!

cakeoflightylight

https://voat.co/v/pizzagate/1612249 PEDOGATE PROOF - DCF Implicated in LA Sex Trafficking Ring (pizzagate) submitted 12 hours ago by Honeybee_ https://youtu.be/ZBs3fuO6eyIYouTube

***PROOF ***- KTLA5 has changed their story from implicating DCF, to now a vague understanding of what actually happened and where these children were located while they were being prostituted and trafficked... The children were rescued from the GOVERNMENT RUN AGENCY - DCF - Department of Children and Families... Ongoing inquery into Tracy Bloom who is the author of the KTLA article that broke the story on February 1st 2017, and why she changed her story.

privatepizza

Thank you OP, for being so brave as to share this painful experience. Your time came to do so and I pray for you and your family. I admire your strength in posting, So many of us have direct experience of abuse. God willing we can, together, make a great, great change.

privatepizza

Yep

Z11Mama

You are far from the first to not put all of this together until years later. Stay strong and under no circumstances doubt yourself. This could get seriously difficult for you but speaking up will help you and others. I am so sorry for what was done to you and your family.

shoosh

Doesn't that make ya want to go to each one of these child funding agency ''foundations" and demand reparation, damage and counselling financial payment for negligence?

https://duckduckgo.com/?q=child+agency+funds&t=hb&ia=web

What are they doing with all their child funding assistance?

Have you considered going to a counsellor for memory assistance? I know some things are forgotten because they can't be dealt with, but a good counsellor can provide help without putting any suggestions in place. That's important if it goes to court they can't charge the counsellor for interfering in ways that hinder court hearings.

If I were in that situation I'd consider finding a lawyer who might do pro bono or payment upon case settlement to charge them for reparation.

All the best to you.

shoosh

Or place pretty young men in the company of pervy old men. They're equal opportunity pedo's. With all the child help funding agencies and nobodies taking down investigation of all the shit that can be found online alone.

Now we're really seeing the propaganda effort in all its filthy manipulation.

Godwillwin

Definitely. We had desperate housewives, cougars, mistresses, and on and on I don't watch any of it, but the commercials are suggestive enough for me to know what they are trying to make "normal"

That game of thrones show sounds absolutely disgusting

shoosh

I watched the first part of it and stopped when they built up to the incest scene. Click and done.

It's really addictive. I have no idea how they digitally package that thing, but for those who are interested in period shows it's mesmerizing.

cakeoflightylight

https://protectingourchildrenfrombeingsold.wordpress.com "Orchestrating Legislative Action 101 Posted on September 17, 2016 by Jim Black 5 Votes

All across America child welfare reform activist are pushing to get the “First Family Preservation Act of 2016” (HR-5456/S-3065) passed through the Senate.

The clock is ticking… session is getting short and we have 3 Senators holding it up.

Senator Boxer (D-CA) 202-224-3553 Senator Enzi (R-WY) 202-224-3424 Senator Cornyn (RINO-TX) 202-224-2934 From my understanding the main hold out is Cornyn."

Note: Cornyn is an "expert" for the Federalist Society. I've met him - I also remember reading a post on pizzagate linking pizzagate to Fed Soc. No idea if that is legit. https://voat.co/v/pizzagate/1481584

cakeoflightylight

https://www.facebook.com/aimeejamey/posts/10154488131564247 http://www.clickondetroit.com/news/charges-dismissed-against-detroit-mother-maryanne-godboldo-due-to-aneurysm https://www.cchrint.org/issues/maryanne-godboldo/ Mother targeted by Michigan after CPS removed her daughter for "medical neglect" when mom took her off antipsychotic drugs. Daughter then RAPED or MOLESTED in the psych ward where they forcibly drugged her. Contracts STD. Mom charged with shooting a weapon. The original order to remove child was never signed by a judge. Michigan is STILL going after her 10 years later appealing the cases against her and she apparently now is not competent to stand trial on remand because of a recent aneurysm.

cakeoflightylight

https://voat.co/v/pizzagate/1609371 Are the laws combating human trafficking harsh enough? Law school dean arrested for soliciting whore gets offered deferred class b misdemeanor and clean record tutor gets light sentence in NYC for raping 4 year old

https://voat.co/v/pizzagate/1600405 FBI agents and other cops who become rapists and pedophiles

https://voat.co/v/AskPizzagate/1600371 CPS board member linked to George W Bush and Jeb Bush passed sex offender laws

New_years_day

I'm sorry for you and your families hardships, and wish you all the best in the future. Thank you for sharing.

cakeoflightylight

I am so sorry!!!! I hate CPS - they are absolutely players. I'll update more later

ArthurEdens

Heartbreaking story, I'm so sorry

Forgetmenot

These stories of survivors need to be told. Thank you for sharing!

Forgetmenot

You have tremendous courage to tell your story! Thank you for sharing. How are you and your family doing? You are a survivor and an inspiration to other victims!

grlldcheese

They have a cause now.

Freemasonsrus

Wow that's incredible. Someone linked a while back to a psychiatrist who's decoded how to unravel someone under mind control. I wonder if some of those methods would help unlock some more memories. (Not saying you were mind controlled, just that the Dr had a deep understanding of suppressed memories.

Singleservename

Heart-wrenching story. I have become convinced CPS plays a huge part in child abuse/sex trafficking becoming endemic in the US and indeed the Western world.

There is a monetary aspect where adoptive parents hoard children - researching pizzagate I found many instances - and people with this motivation rarely take good care of their adoptees.

Then there is the legal aspect. I found many examples too of CPS as well as other child law institutions where the path to adoption routinely becomes corrupted because the people in charge think the law doesn't apply to them - and they're usually right.

Then there is the sexual abuse aspect which probably overlaps both. There is no serious monitoring system for the sexual integrity of adopted children who are entirely dependent on their stepparents and even if there were it would probably be corrupted by pedos who ALWAYS circle like vultures around vulnerable children.

The entire system not just for adopting kids but also helping underprivileged children, caring for 'special needs kids', foreign aid as well as the legal underpinnings have ALL become severely compromised.

Merely erecting guillotines for the Podestas, Silsby's, Sandalows and Clintons of this world will not change that situation. But, it's a start.

2impendingdoom

There were a lot of threads early on this investigation about CPS and family court abuses. There is a book about the Connecticut legal system called "in the worst interests of the child" that probably applies to every state.

EatThePizzaEaters

You are very brave for sharing this, thank you. You have an entire community behind you right now and all of us (minus the shills of course) are here to support you. Please reach out if you ever need to talk.

srayzie

Thank you for sharing your story. I think molestation is a lot more common than people think. My brothers best friend was their soccer coach at school. I'm 5 years younger but I think he was in junior high. So my brother went and stayed the night at his friends house and when he was sleeping, the coach climbed in bed with my brother and molested him. My brother tried to commit suicide when he was 15. He was in a coma and not expected to survive. But now he speaks at churches all over giving testimony about our childhood and his overcoming so much.

Well the coach ended up later on going to prison for killing a woman. My brother was believed then! We always believed. It just makes me sick that so many perverts find jobs where they can be around children. It can just ruin lives. Then they look like great people because they are "good with kids" so then it's hard to convince people that the person is really bad. That's what all these charities do. They look like heros when all along their true agenda was hidden. Anyways, I hope nothing else happened to you and you're suppressing it.

carmencita

Wow what stories. My heart goes out to all of the abused. It is sad that it took a murder in order for a child to be believed. People believe someone can kill but not abuse of a child. This country needs to open up. It is a creepy subject but the more we talk about it in a healthy way, the more people will stop closing their ears. It is a horrible subject that people do not want to face. Peace to You All.

srayzie

I agree. The sad part is that a lot of people will falsely accuse people so they ruin it for the true victims. I had a friend in school that accused the teacher of molesting her because she didn't like the school she was going to and wanted to switch to mine. So the teacher was put on leave to be investigated and then she admitted she had lied. That's why it's so tough. You never know.

carmencita

I believe that both should be punished to the full sens of the law. Either way. People get wiped out when they see the word pedo and child. When a child makes a false claim like that the parents should be punished or go to jail. I don't know if that is the perfect answer either but there should be a harsh punishment.There should be some severe threat. That is the only way we will conquer this. Make tough laws and enforce them.

srayzie

Maybe juvenile hall. Some kids might like getting their parents in jail!

carmencita

They must agree to mandatory therapy and home life and parents must be investigated.

srayzie

Yeah therapy is a good idea

carmencita

I think it takes therapy to keep them from repeating what has been done to them if they have been abused. But if they fabricate such a story there is also something seriously wrong. Very wrong.

fuckmyreddit

Therapy doesn't work with a true sociopath. Not all abusers are stone cold psychopaths or sociopaths, but perpetrators who have that specific defective brain pattern will never be helped with therapy. True sociopaths just learn how to lie better and beat the system when in counselling.

Edit: I just realized you meant therapy for the victim. Absolutely. The hard part is finding a good therapist.

carmencita

I guess that is why some abuse victims just get better working out their own problems (which takes a lifetime sometimes) and turn out alright. Others are completely adverse to help and believe they have a right to keep doing what they are doing. They actually believe that the children want them and are seeking sex with them. There are some sick people out there, but we need to help those that are victims of abuse. I believe we should offer free abuse help now. Right away we should help get these people off the streets before they start doing what was done to them.

4warned

So sorry you and your family were separated in such a way. May these memories continue to inspire you to help others. God bless, praying for you.

repoman

My grandmother used to give me baths in the sink and she sometimes touched Mr. Winky.

I miss my grandmother.

Nana66

Grandmothers are awesome.

FoxDen

I'm so sorry to hear about your story. These depraved sickos flock to positions where they can abuse children.

I truly believe this guy abused my little brother. He was very high up in the childhood education world and served as a court-appointed child advocate. He was convicted of some really sick stuff and still lives within 1000 feet of a school.

His face makes me want to vomit.

FriesischShipping

"Juvenile Court Volunteer" -imparting wisdom I'm sure

IPleadThe2nd

The CASA program really concerns me! There are a lot of wonderful, retired people who become CASA's, but it is a volunteer position that allows people from the community A LOT of private and direct contact with vulnerable children. CASAs are background checked and go through a long training program, and then they are assigned cases and spend hours with the children. They take kids in their private cars and can basically go wherever they want with them. It's ripe for abuses and problems like what you point out with your brother. I'm very sorry for you and him.

Z11Mama

For various reasons, I have been forced to doubt CASA at every turn. We need to watch them.

cakeoflightylight

When I was in college this was our sorority's charity. I thought it was a great organization until I realized all they do is just basically, help CPS but that they do not get paid.

Monkeyshinerbot3000

You were placed into contact with child protective services, then you are most assuredly a victim.

Selnee

Ugh so sorry. Thanks for sharing. I agree with another poster if it's someone you feel like getting more involved with I would try to find out who the psychologist was and report it. That is just not ok.

abcdefg222

Thank you for sharing. All of us are here in pursuit of justice and are with you. Sending prayers.

Annon365

Report it, demand to know who he was , there must be records of who he was, possiblity of other victims to come forward when this shit hits the fan

Forgetmenot

Victims need to confront their victimizers and also get acknowledged for what they survived. It's a crying shame that the judicial system hides underage victims and prevents them from confronting and healing from the trauma. Expose all the pedos and bring them to justice!

VIrginiaPerson

I understand this sentiment and support the feeling behind it, but a big part of why those of us who have been abused never file charges against our abusers is because we don't want to face them or their defenders ever again. When you face your abuser and tell them off, all they do is tell you how it was your fault and how they had a worse deal than you did.

There needs to be something in place that protects victims more but still allows them to put their abusers away. That may be changing society to view sexual abuse (and domestic abuse) the same as a random violence. People should not get lighter sentences for hurting people in their own families.

Forgetmenot

I could not agree more. We have legal protection for the accused: the legal system must view them as innocent until proven guilty. But our most vulnerable? Nothing. If you are a woman and a victim you have less resources to navigate the legal system, a child has even less recourse and no voice! It makes me so angry and I wish I knew what needed to be done to change it! Meanwhile the criminals have a free lawyer and the presumption of innocence. What do victims get?

Forgetmenot

Just being able to tell someone requires courage, because when you are victimized you become terrified of even shadows. To voice it is step one but our society, punishes, silences and doubts the victims!

Honeybee_

My prayers are with you, thank you for sharing! We need to stop this madness.

antiracist

God knows and ain't doing shit.

@SarMegahhikkitha @bojangles @eagleshigh

DefenderOfTruth

God has a plan. He gave us free will and this is what has come of it. This earthly life is a blip on the screen compared to eternity. Hell will become very real to these perverts who are abusing kids. Jesus spoke a parable that I think you may find helpful as I did:

Another parable He put forth to them, saying: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field; but while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat and went his way. But when the grain had sprouted and produced a crop, then the tares also appeared. So the servants of the owner came and said to him, ‘Sir, did you not sow good seed in your field? How then does it have tares?’ He said to them, ‘An enemy has done this.’ The servants said to him, ‘Do you want us then to go and gather them up?’ But he said, ‘No, lest while you gather up the tares you also uproot the wheat with them. Let both grow together until the harvest, and at the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, “First gather together the tares and bind them in bundles to burn them, but gather the wheat into my barn.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭13:24-30‬ ‭NKJV‬‬ http://bible.com/114/mat.13.24-30.nkjv

It is in God's plan to let the evil live among the good. Rest assured, all will be brought to justice at the end.

JesusOfNazareth

I'll rest assured when the pedos are killed.

@SarMegahhikkitha @bojangles @eagleshigh @hecho

SarMegahhikkitha

Be the change you want to see in the world.

JesusOfNazareth

You want me to kill pedos?

@bojangles @eagleshigh

BoraxTheFungarian

Tell about how you came to find out what God is doing...

SarMegahhikkitha

That's the whole point of praying.

antiracist

wat?

Prayer is to praise God, not to ask for his intervention.

@bojangles @eagleshigh

SarMegahhikkitha

There are four types of prayer (davening): praise (tehillah), thanksgiving (todah), petitionary prayer (tefillah), and supplication (selichah). You say yourself that only God is real, so then people must be God without knowing it, so God must want to create an experience for Himself that's not nightmarish, so it makes sense for Him to be able to submit support tickets to Himself and let His servants/messengers handle the support queue, so He's not trapped in the Matrix with no deliverer. Not only that, but if G-d primarily wants praise, then the best way to get that is to goad people into praying and then reward them with something He wanted to give them anyway, but since they asked for it now they appreciate it more (and give thanks for something they would have taken for granted).

JesusOfNazareth

people must be God without knowing it

God is all knowing.

so God must want to create an experience for Himself that's not nightmarish

God does not want. Nightmares don't exist.

G-d primarily wants praise, then the best way to get that is to goad people into praying and then reward them with something He wanted to give them anyway

God does not want. God's deservingness of praise does not require god's wanting of praise.

@bojangles @eagleshigh

concernedaboutitall

Very brave to share. I think part of the obsession of pizzagate for a good part of us is exactly these sort of memories that sort of seem like dreams or, rather, nightmares.

2impendingdoom

No matter what the creepy doctor did, it sounds like they really fucked with your family. wishing you all the best...

Dressage2

So sorry to hear about your young life. You are obviously a survivor and you are here trying to protect other children. I admire your strength and glad you are not giving up to carry on for children's justice.

GhostOfSwartz

Wow. Thanks for sharing. I am terrified for my little one as I look back throughout my life and how many times inappropriate things were done to me by family members, older schoolmates and some people in positions of authority. I wonder what the percentage of molestation really is if we were all honest about it.

endview

I was also afraid for my two girls as they grew up. I never had true memory of the abuse my childhood best friend and I were subjected to by our Associate Pastor until I was in my late 20's. When I remembered, and I don't know what sparked them, the memories were as clear as a bell. I asked my friend about it (we had never spoken of it) and she confirmed it had happened but was not too concerned about the incidents. This occurred when we were both 10 or 11 years old. I still have a memory I can't recall. My parents allowed me to go with him to North Carolina to visit my grandparents while he visited someone else. I don't have any memory of the trip except I am sure it happened. When I told my mother about the abuse a few years later, when I was in my 30's, she didn't believe that it could have happened. My husband and I married when I was 28 and began having a family. We ended up having 2 girls. They are grown now but I worried so much about them going places, even with friends. Pedophilia, even in a Baptist church, has been around for a long time.

DefenderOfTruth

& I think we've all been groomed sexually by the media to some extent. Hollywood has "molested" a lot of young minds through movies, cartoons, and ads.

fuckmyreddit

Mainstream Hollywood movies and TV shows are hideous, but I'm not sure anything compares to the debauchery of rock/rap lyrics and videos. Lyrics go into your brain emotionally like a meme. They bypass your thought process and sink deep into a child's mind. Rappers should be thrown into shark infested waters.

FriesischShipping

Word, openly and subliminally.