Sued for defamation and then donated the money, to who you may ask? Look into it as I believe it was a children's charity. The sanctimonious bastard. I would have to say no to the prison idea because we would have to pay for them.

With people like this I think the only solution is an island with limited resources. They all get sent there and there is cctv on the island that televises to the rest of the world of normal people. We only pay for the coast guard to keep them on the island. Then they can learn what survival is and barbarism feels like. But that would make me as bad as them, watching with popcorn as they fight for resources. Reverse hunger games. God I sound sick

No I am not but perhaps I should be. I have thought about that a lot but want to try to sort myself out on my own. I do not have any friends but that is no sad story, trusting people is not particularly easy. I did once have a load of friends but since hitting my mid twenties and getting pretty heavily involved in drugs and the rave scene, everything started to unravel. I realise that we were just people that had a common goal at the time, not sure that is a friend anyway? No, this is no sad story because I think you are right in saying we choose the life we have, I have brought a lot of unhappiness on myself and am trying to change that but I know at times if there was a gun sitting in front of me I would shoot myself in the face without hesitation but I couldn't do that to my Lovely wife. Literally the best thing that happened to me and because of her know that angels do in fact exist!

Thank you for taking the time to read it

Yes I can believe that but at what point do we stop being a link in the chain and start behaving properly. I guess some don't have a choice as they feel like they are swimming against the tide. This is my help buddy, I was considering hypnosis to make some sense of these fractured thoughts I have but it may open up a can of worms I can't contain. I just know I was very aware about sex at a very young age. What is strange is I was never promiscuous in my teens, I have only really had one proper partner (officially) and that is my wife. We have been together for nearly 20 years and I am only 36. Every cloud has a silver lining A :)

Thanks for saying that buddy

Much appreciated Bro/Sis!

Listen incest is undeniably one of the worst things that can happen to you but you can overcome it. I sought help ever since I was 11 and then as an adult I really got into alternative medicine and therapies. I didn't even remember the incest happening I just had a host of psychological and medical issues and it soon became aware that all of my partners were abusive. You just have want it from the bottom of your heart and fight for it. It seemed pointless to me for many years as new things emerged over and over but at 30 I saw I was better than the people who did nothing and just saught comfort in one form of escapism or another. When I look at a survivor in their 50s who get bad PTST upon mentioning a dead persons name I don't feel sorry for them.

They had 30+ years to heal and those fuckers are long dead. I know what it is like to disown your whole family and struggle through life as an orphan.

But fucked up as I was I was essentially free to make my own choices as an adult and these choices then formed my life.

Drop me a message privately if you want to talk more.

If you had ordinary run of the mill therapy I am not surprised it dd not help. My friend an SRA survivor has told me that only special therapists trained in SRA will know how to help you. This can be expensive. She is 69 years old and has fought against her rapist many times and is My Inspiration. She is a Steel Magnolia of the Strongest Kind. She also has an illness. She has good and bad days but gets her story out there. They have told her the more she gets her story out the more protected she is. That is up to you, trying to blank it out will only hurt you in the future. This is all advise from her. God Bless You. @unstoppable

I am yet to find an answer to that one, until yesterday I used to smoke around an oz a week... Today I quit and so here I am talking about my past. I am not sure if this is cathartic or will leave me with a sense of regret. Exercise used to be my thing until I got lazy.

Although I am left with a profound sense of hate and my family has been pretty much torn apart, continuing to express myself in any way and drawing a much needed line in the sand is like therapy. I can't change the past but I certainly can screw my future thinking about these things. Or something to that effect. There is a lot of guilt when you have suffered abuse, like you have somehow brought it on yourself but that is nonsense and wickedness talking, evil continuing.,

Eat well, talk lots and exercise. You literally decide how YOU want your future to be. We cannot move on as victims, we need to take control of ourselves and with that, take all the credit when we succeed. Forgive the monsters as they are already living in hell but do not rally to excuse them either. I hope you get it worked out and move on towards peace. I will be damned if I let them ruin my life. I am ruining for myself at present but that will change. Watch this space

Thanks for the link. Have you seen the interview where he speaks about getting accused? It is one of the worst performances I have ever seen. I would go to his parties and the fact that my grandad was who he was gives credence to the "allegations" being most correct.

After all a driver knows everything about who he is driving, who he meets and more. I refuse to see it as a simple coincidence that my grandfather was a raging paedophile acting with impunity for decades.

That statement is EPIC. He is talking about SRA and I believe there is a Flood Gate of SRA waiting to be exposed. @unstoppable

Personally I think the research is completely spot on, exemplary in fact. I have never seen such a devoted group of people. However..... Nothing will change all of this as long as the status quo in politics maintains its standing. They can control how the mainstream thinks. I don't know what will change people's minds sadly, I really thought pizzagate would do it, the emails, the mountain of evidence, it can only point to one thing and yet the mainstream still doesn't touch it. This will all end when the big reset finally comes and people see the evil for what it is. Till then it will be whispers this and rumours that.

With regard to the UK, since the Saville outing we have seen more and more talk of institutionalised paedophillia and talk of traficking but they are all very controlled explosions.

Mcalpine gets outted and then gets a payout from a libel case I believe. We all power the machine

Of course I completely understand. Thanks

I looked into it pal and really I don't side with any particular group, even though we may share views. Truth is a lonely warrior

Thank you!

Qumdumpster: Kill yourself, please. Thank you

(If you have nothing nice, intelligent, useful, or even interesting to say, SHUT THE FUCK UP. Real 'long time goats' don't need to be told that)

I am white and I am as dysloxic as you have manners. Thanks for being here confirming that evil exists :) I upvoated ya anyways.

Ps, How many times have I posted this blog?